A Poem I Just Made Up: One More Clock

ONE MORE CLOCK:
The last one broke;
It's shards, irreplaceable.
They were made of the rarest crystal known to man,
And now they are shattered into a million pieces.
The sharp edges can only dig deeper into the old home where the wooden floorboards would rot.
Impossible to find, yet you know they're there, because you can feel them on your bare feet.
Even though the pieces of crystal are too tiny to see, they still poke at you.
They cut, and pin into your sole.
You can't just stare at the broken clock.
You can't just leave it it way it is.
You have to try!
You have to pick it up, and throw it away; or at least, what you can.
Eventually, it will all disappear.
It may take time, yes.
But it's worth it.
The scars surround your soul.
It's just a way for you to learn from your mistakes.
But what was the mistake?
Getting a fragile clock, or breaking it?
The only way you can find out is if you get one more clock.
If the delicate clock breaks again, then maybe you shouldn't play with antiques.


TRANSLATION: ONE MORE CHANCE
The last time you were with him, it didn't work out;

The memories you had, will never be replaced.

It was such a rare thing, love,

But you feel jaded, as if love cannot be found anymore.

Your sorrow, and pity can only grow worse over time.

You find love to be impossible, but you're only in denial.

You keep telling yourself, "They're just little feelings, they'll go away." But they never do, and they constantly bug you.

They change you.

You can't just ignore that he exists.

You can't just pretend nothing ever happened.

You have to try!

You have take your grudges, and forget them; or at least, what you can..

Eventually, it will all disappear.

It may take time, yes.
But it's worth it.
The scars will always be there.
It's just a way for you to learn from your mistakes.

But what was the mistake?

Going after him in the first place, or ending it with him?

The only way you can find it is if you give him one more chance.

If your relationship ends up the way it did last time, then maybe you should find someone new.

Flaky Fakes

I feel like people put my hopes up too much, and never follow through. I have never flaked out on anyone before. It's really easy not to, I just don't understand why it is that there are so many people out there who bail out, or just sort of disappear for a while, and for a stupid/no reason. Follow through with what you say, or don't say it! It really can't get any simpler than that.

This isn't directed to just one person, for the record. This is directed at several people I have come across in my life-time. I've just kind of had enough of it. I don't like being walked on all the time. It's not okay, yet I give you guys hundreds of chances. I either respond as a "Oh, it's alright, it's not a big deal." Which is usually the case, but when you keep doing it, and the excuse is always the same, I don't see the point in bothering with you anymore. 

I'm not one to just leave in the middle of a conversation. Here's a situation I've come across way too many times before... I make plans with someone, and we are still texting, talking, meeting each other in-person casually before the big plans, then when the day comes this person just disappears without a trace. No forewarning, no text, no phone calls, no messages, nothing. Then the next day, this person all of a sudden exists again, with some lame excuse as to why they couldn't respond, or let me know they couldn't make it. Yet here I am, waiting for hours for this person to respond/show up. Whatever the case, it wastes my time and I start to lose respect for this person.

Now... I wouldn't flake out on an event, unless the situation preventing me from going is 100% understandable. I would also let the person know before anything; I wouldn't pretend I forgot, I lost my phone, or my phone died. There's other ways for reaching someone other than a phone and you're not the only person in the world with a phone. Stop the lame phone excuses already. 

It's really immature/childish to pull crap like that, and I let people get away with it in my life. Why do I do this? you may ask, because I'm a very understanding person. I'm considerate of others, and I treat people the way I would like to be treated in return. You may call me a push-over, but that's just who I am, and I know I will come out on top in the end because I believe in karma.

I MOVED!?!?

Yup! That's right! I've officially moved. Where? Right in the middle of St. Petersburg! This is probably the nicest/coolest my room has ever looked too. I've taken a few pictures for you guys to see.

Office Side

Piano & Bed Side

What are you waiting for?

People just aren't like they used to be. Procrastination is becoming habit, and no one is noticing because they're too sucked into their own problems-their own drama. No one is noticing that we are falling apart. Our mental state is becoming broken, and the only way to fix it is to illuminate the problem. But what is the problem? Is it technology? Is it the food we put into our mouths? What about the things they're teaching us at school? What are the parents doing to fix their children? Pills? Support groups? Why are we so messed up? You know exactly why... But what are you doing about it? Do something! Improve your state of being! Professionalize your life! Create a positive reputation for yourself. Set an example-set a trend. What are you waiting for?

Cross-dresser at Denny's

So my friend Kristie and I were at Denny's, and some very hyper ladies that come into Applebee's bumped into us there. We said our (hi)'s & (how are you)'s and they took their seats a few booths over form us. They were so loud, but it wasn't obnoxious, it was funny. No one else seemed to find it annoying either, so it was whatever.

Then a few minutes later, and old man walks in with this very young-looking woman, wearing barely any clothing. She was all dressed up as if she worked on the streets as a prostitute. You better believe these hyper girls from Applebee's noticed, and started talking about it with their loud voices. It took them only a few minutes after the man and his lady friend to take a seat, for one of the girls to notice and yell "That ain't no girl, that's a man!" And indeed, she was actually a he.

We think the old man didn't have any clue. So the hyper girls started writing on a piece of paper, and attempted to give the old man the paper, probably saying "You know that the girl your with is actually a man, right?" - but me and my friend Kristie didn't stick around long enough to see what happened. All we saw was one really annoyed cross-dresser and a very clueless old man.

"Guidelines & Tips" - Meeting Someone From Online

Online dating has become such a trend, it's almost a requirement for most people. Meeting up with people you meet from online is always a stress. Where do you want to meet? What would you want to do? When would you want to meet? Do we bring friends? etc. From experience, I can tell you now that when it comes to meeting people online, you can never be too careful.


Guidelines:
-Make sure the person you're meeting has several pictures of just them self, and that they are clear pictures.
-Also, make sure all the pictures are obviously the same person.
-Make sure the person you're meeting fills out their profile enough.
-Take the time to talk to the person via, message. (Not Text Message)
-Don't give out any personal information, such as your cellphone number, or address.
-Meet in a public place.
-Maybe invite a friend along.
-Make sure your phone is fully charged in-case of an emergency.


Tips:
-Dress casual. (You don't want to over-dress your date, and you REALLY don't want to under-dress them)
-Make sure you have enough cash for the both of you. (Just in-case)
-Try not to text or make any phone calls on your cellphone while you're on your date. (It will make the other person thing they're boring you)
-Keep the conversation rolling, by asking plenty questions, and giving extended answers. (It will fill in the awkward silences)
-Don't fidget too much. (It will make you come off as nervous)
-Don't ask personal questions/sexual questions. (It will make it seem like you're rushing through getting to know them, and just trying to get the third base)
-Try not to talk so much about yourself. (It will make you come off as self-centered)
-Create a mental list of things to talk about. (In-case the conversation runs dry)
-Still be yourself, and don't lie/exaggerate!


If you're going to meet with the person, a great place would be at a coffee shop, for conversation, and if you don't like coffee, go to a place where you can eat outside. If you don't like talking so much, try a movie!

Message from "Glee" Executive Producer, Ryan Murphy

The response to our MySpace casting call has been overwhelming and our casting team has been reviewing every submission. We have been so impressed by the talent and enthusiasm of everyone we've seen and we also are in the planning stages of a competition show with Oxygen to find even more fresh faces for GLEE. So for all of you who have always dreamed of the chance to appear on our show, we have just three words: Don't stop believin'. - Ryan

T-Mobile & Bank of America

Google Phone (G1) for T-Mobile

I use T-Mobile as my service plan, and I've never had a problem with it... UNTIL I MOVED TO ST. PETE! Does anyone else with T-Mobile in St. Pete rarely have any signal? It kind of makes the point of having a cellphone obsolete. And on top of that, I have the G1 (The first HTC by Google). It was amazing at the time, but it was only a matter of time until they came out with about 100 new phones 100 times better than the G1. Don't get me wrong, I love my G1 and all, bit it's just so much slower than other Android phones. Having T-Mobile doesn't really help that problem. I'm not sure if this is just my carrier, or every carrier, but I get a lot of duplicate text messages, and sometimes my texts messages won't send. It's a pain in the butt!

Bank of America will screw you over!

And is anyone else sick of Bank of America's cards not working all the time? I know I'm not the only one because several people have related their stories with mine. You go into a store to buy something, and no matter how many times you or the cashier swipes the card, id doesn't seem to work. They even try this weird "plastic bag over the card" trick, and I've only seen that work once. "It's the card! It's been demagnetized some how." they say. I've gone through at least 4 cards now, and I'm sick of having to do this every month. I think I'm going to switch to Wachovia.

One of my favorite "gay" online communities!

     DList.com is one of the best gay online communities. It used to be much more graphic than it is now, but the owner and a few of his administrators did a big sweep through recently, and a lot of rules are in-place to make it more publicly acceptable. There's no more public nudes here, just your average social network now, but specifically meant for gay men and gay icons, such as Madonna, Lady Gaga, Kathy Griffin, etc. 

     Just imagine, good ole' MySpace/Facebook, but more exclusive. I think it's great. It makes finding friends you can relate to much easier. Though the rules are a lot more strict, there's still tons of people connected to this community. It's constantly being updated with more features, and hundreds of new users sign up each day! Check it out!

If you would like to find me on there, my url/link is http://www.dlist.com/aaronrogers1.

Where has all the romance gone?

People aren't romantic like they used to be. Where's the surprise picnics, the mixed CDs, the little hidden love notes left in the car. As corny as it may sound/seem, I love those little things, and I wish people would start doing them more. I found a website where they list 101 Romantic Gestures that I think everyone should start practicing. Here's a few of my favorite things from that list...


101 Romantic Gestures: 
http://ezinearticles.com/?101-Romantic-Gestures&id=1071107


Body Rubs (Feet, back, hand, head, neck, shoulders)
Snuggle
Make a Mixed CD
Dance under the stars
Hide love notes in the house/car
Going on a walk together
Joy Riding on a scenic road
Cook a meal together
Grocery Shopping together
Sunrise coffee date
Opening doors for each other
Leave a Hershey Kiss on their pillow
A Bouquet of flowers
Pulling out the chair before seating
Make them a gift
Play footsie
etc.


There's many things other than this list, if you can think of them. I thought of a few. A surprise picnic, or maybe an art project involving paint so you can have a paint fight! There's hundreds and thousands of things you can do to make that special someone feel special.